My Biggest Fear? Well...

     When we talked about our biggest fear earlier in the semester when we was reading Frankenstein by Mary Shelley, I really wasn't sure what mine was. I have lots of fears, but not a really big one. Through a lot of critical thinking, I think I have come to a conclusion about this fear of mine. My biggest fear is failing my parents and my family. Ever since I was in grade schools I have been earning some pretty good grades, A's and B's to be exact. My parents have been proud of my grades like all parents should be. But then the praising went a little to far. Soon my uncles and aunts would be saying stuff like you are the smart one so failure is no option or you cannot fail because you have to be successful for your parents and brothers. As I grew up more and more of my relatives would say the same thing. Then when I got into Challenger, their expectations blew out of proportion. My uncle started to compare his sons grade with mine and say that I am going to be a successful person and that all their hopes might as well go to me. Now this might just be a word of discouragement to encourage him, but I think that he does have a sense of that instilled in him. The pressure of a lot of people counting on me and especially my oldest brother. My oldest brother is probably one of the best brother ever, every one of my brothers listens to him and when we are getting in a fight and he steps in then fighting stops right then and there. And I am afraid, afraid to death of failing all of them. The pressure of them on my shoulders have already shown through my years at challenger. My grades started to take a dip because of the added pressure of all these people. I know that it should only encourage me more, but its to stressful and once a bad thought comes into my mind, it sticks, and it is hard to get rid of. So my biggest fear is failing everyone who is expecting a lot out of me.